God.

I hope there is one out there somewhere. a mysterious being or something greater than beings. when i was little i would pray to "god" everynight. for my family, for my friends and for myself. i prayed that everyone would grow up happy and healthy and get everything they wanted.
if there is a god, i dont think he likes me right now.

on a totaly different note, Goodbye by Secondhand Serenade is a song at the top of my playlist. Thanks to Sammy for helping me revisit the much loved song it explains everything. And that song is true 110%.
I am never going to go back to a loveless or dishonest relationship again. it is so over and never will happen again. i blamed myself and i now realise i am not to blame and i never will be. too many lies and not enough truth. its time to try moving on and forget the losers we lost.


Goodbye, Secondhand Serenade;
It's a shame that it had to be this way
It's not enough to say I'm sorry
It's not enough to say I'm sorry

Maybe I'm to blame
Or maybe were the same
But either way I can't breathe
Either way I can't breathe

All I had to say is goodbye
Were better off this way
Were better off this way

I'm alive but I'm losing all my drive
Cause everything we've been through
And everything about you
Seemed to be a lie
A guiltless twisted lie
It made me learn to hate you
Or hate myself for letting it pass by

All I had to say is goodbye
Were better off this way
Were better off this way
All I had to say is goodbye
Were better off this way
Were better off this way

And every, everything isn't only
What it seemed so hold these
Words that you never told me
Its time to say goodbye
Its time to say goodbye
Its time to say goodbye
Goodbye

Bye

Take my hand away
Spell it out
Tell me I was wrong
Tell me I was wrong

Take my hand away
Spell it out
Tell me I was wrong
Tell me I was wrong

Take my hand away
Spell it out
Tell me I was wrong
Tell me I was wrong